im still working on why man is different from animals so far ive only got upto "man is more destructive" as that agent said in the matrix humans display a behavior more like a virus than like a mammal, i totally agree with him. it seems like no one is really interested anymore in the higher values of love caring and sharing, of humanity...a culture of oneness and togetherness, along with a sense of individuality and respect towards other peoples choices and a universal acceptance of all kinds of behavior, rather than a society of cruelty and enforced rules, a society whose culture is making more money criticizing everyone else standing to pathetically lame beliefs, with amazing narrow mindedness nobody seems to realize that they are ALL going to die someday!!!!!!

I wanna go......ASAP!!!

Vivek
lolz

babes this oct i pass 12th (atleast attempt to do so) and im joining call centre next month ....then off to NEPAL!!!!!!!!!

YOHAOOOOAHAOP

marie.markarian

what the fuck.. you're not continuing studies?

Vivek

wish i had 4k now i leave in 15mins :P

well im passing 12th

then i really dont care where life takes me

marie.markarian

life is what you make.

don't be a jerk and waste time ok :)

Vivek

i MAY come back in 15days or never at all

hell whats wasting time??

u think trying to earn money after spending half of ur life reading tect books u could never even care about isnt wasting time?

i think that qualifies for wasting time more than tripping in himalayas does

marie.markarian

yeah whatever.

go be a loser.

:)

Vivek

lol

define a loser

:|

if its a person who doesnt give a fuck and wants to leave all the chaos and be peaceful is a loser the i proudly am

marie.markarian

what chaos my dear? :)

Vivek

and ironically enough i dont even know if im wake up tommorow hence i think life takes u...u just choose to tag along

hmm.....not chaos

more like restrictions

more like society

which sucks

hmm

i dont want to leave here

i just want to be some place else

and thats nepal

i wanna be a free bird

marie.markarian

you already are a free bird dumbo... freedom is not in your actions.

Vivek

thats true

but i cant yet live that knowledge

marie.markarian

yeah I am not a hippie you got a problem with that?

Vivek

welll u know the world is an illusion then why do u still do kriya??

marie.markarian

you are living it. you freely are making a choice of not living it,

it's your free will that chose it.

Vivek

because its just intellect telling u havent experienced it

how Vivek gained perspective and became a poet

Vivek: dude i feel humbled

The: well guess what... everyday when i'm talking stupid with you latenights, i'm talking to her simultaneously as well... she doesn't affect my mind too much now...

Vivek: i realize i am not as cool as i though i was its given me a dose of perspective theres so much i dont know and so much more to learn , i have been positivly been a moron wasting my life, and its not just her its look at all the others too, i mean i cant even answer a simple question on relativity anymore and to think i took up commerce coz i had problem with 11th phy

i havent even managed to pass my 12th commerce yet even though its more of not attended the exam than fail, but i thought i was an awesome guy whon noone could beat in a argument or be sarcistic like, it had all gone to my head i take it i needed perspective

i really feel humbled

and hence will show more respect to anyone from now on

The: :|

wtf

Vivek: ?

The: all this JUST by knowing (next to) Nothing about her??

Vivek: its not bout her

its the turn of events in the evening

The: what else?

Vivek: that is taking nothing away from her

its just the whole argument

bout that poem

i know i never would have stood a chance anywhere

and also the light thing i got confused about

The: i'll show you another extract of my chat

wait a minute

Vivek: and then reflecting back to how i was an year before to what has become of me now

that hurt me the most

ive become egoistic and insufferable

an assole

asshole*

and what i was is gone the pride i held bout myself...that myself doesnt even exist anymore

hello u listning?

The: yup

Vivek: ull never get another chance like this

The: contemplating

Vivek: hence

i conclude i needed some perspective

and now that ive got one

i dont know what to do with it

The: it is now that you've start being an asshole

Vivek: im sorry for my ignorance

and infinite dumbness of mine that u have had to suffer

The: :|

acting dumb is fun

it always was

Vivek: its different from being dumb

The: your dumbness makes me love you even more :P

LOL

Vivek: and an act for me has become reality

Sent at 1:33 AM on Wednesday

Vivek: swell in the head where did u come from?
where did i lose all that i had?
when did this act become true?
when did i start living my part?
i wake as a baby and i dont know where i am
what has become of what that was?
perspective i lost and insufferable i became...
i hope today this day that all will change....

ahem u there?

i decided to become a poet today :P

Why now?

I could keep asking that to myself and i still would never have an answer.
A subtle persuasion from my brain to go ahead and make a blog was never enough, a determined and..................................


oh well nevermind now ill just type somthing later Namrata detroyed the great creative flow that was surging through me by barfing on yahoo